I’m learning more and more how to embrace what feels good in the moment rather than doing things because I feel like I have to. I am learning more and more how to listen to my body and hear her ‘yes’ and her ‘no’. I have noticed a lot of resistance around alcohol recently specifically.
As I drink it I can feel my body saying ‘no’ and I now don’t often have more than one, especially indoors. If I do go for another, I don’t often finish my second or I really struggle to finish it and I wake up the next day not feeling good at all. Just foggy and sad and heavy. I did this with coffee a while ago, I was drinking two a day but often the second coffee was a body ‘no’ but I’d drink it anyway because I wanted the boost and then I felt anxious for the rest of the day and was totally unproductive.
I have now stopped having my second cup now and I feel much better for it. Some mornings it is a ‘no’ some mornings it is a ‘yes’ but I always ask my body before I go ahead and automatically drink it. I can feel that learning to listen to the small yes/no will help me to embrace my intuition more and more as I move forward and can see that I can absolutely trust my body reactions rather than my mind reactions.
I’ve been doing it the past few weeks with rest or work. And when my body says ‘rest’ I do. I have been just as productive because I am more alert and in the zone when I do work, and I have noticed my general level of headaches have massively reduced. I have known for a long time that headaches are my body’s way of getting to me stop and rest, they physically force me to. By listening to the little nudges, my body has not been having to scream at me to stop in the form of awful headaches. It seems so clear now that I have actually started to listen to myself.
Healing is not linear. It is messy and complex. Here I share excerpts from my journaling practices to help you see what it can really look like. I hope it helps you to heal too – Gina x
I am more worried about maintaining my growth at this point -about making bold moves whilst I’m in the head space to do so, but then getting to the point of no return and crumbling into a scared mess. I have nothing to base this off though, I have never done that in my life. I know that it is ridiculous and it is just my ego talking.
I AM capable, I AM strong enough, I WILL thrive. Even if/when I have difficult patches, I have everything I need within me to follow through with it all and if I can’t do it alone, I always have people I can ask to help me. I never have to do it all by myself and if it really isn’t everything I hope it will be, I can always change my course. I am free to change my mind whenever I want to if something doesn’t feel right or if it’s not what I thought it would be. That is called experience. So I may as well just go for it and try it and at the very least it’s an experience and an opportunity to learn more about myself and what I do really want. Nothing is permanent
Healing is not linear. It is messy and complex. Here I share excerpts from my journaling practices to help you see what it can really look like. I hope it helps you to heal too – Gina x
I used to feel that I needed to be perfect in order to be loved. If I wasn’t ‘good enough’ then nobody would love me. This was in the form of good grades at school, then in the form of having a perfect body, then it came in the form of being a perfect business owner. As I got older it then came in the form of needing to be fun enough- one of the things I have struggled with the most is the need to be fun and adventurous enough.
I look at it all and the only thing I noticeably feel about it all now is how fucking exhausting it all is.
I think a lot of this comes from just being a woman brought up in the patriarchy. So much is expected of us, we are supposed to perfect but we have to be perfect without trying – if we are seen to be trying too hard we are shamed but if we are seen to not try we are shamed. If we look good we are celebrated, but look too good we are objectified, if we are intelligent we are celebrated but too intelligent we are ‘threatening’. We told we are attractive for being fun but if we are too fun and we are ‘wild, unruly, slutty’ etc etc, our freedom becomes ugly. Confidence is sexy but too confident and we become full of ourselves *EYE ROLL
This is something I have been digging into for a while now and I have made great leaps. I started questioning who I was doing things for, and slowly I have been making changes. If I am not doing it for me I have stopped doing it. Like wearing a bra, or makeup, or doing my hair. I always did those things to be ‘feminine’ but I have re-defined the word ‘feminine’ and now, for me, feminine means wild woman, it means freedom, it means unapologetically being who the fuck I am, and all those expectations and limitations and boundaries are crumbling away.
Feminine means powerful, it means connected to Earth and seasons and magic and Universal love. The word ‘perfect’ is becoming less and less important to me, for me now, I am focusing on freedom.
Healing is not linear. It is messy and complex. Here I share excerpts from my journaling practices to help you see what it can really look like. I hope it helps you to heal too – Gina x
I love that I am inconsistent. I never know which aspect of me is going to show herself and that’s exciting! It means that I see new parts of myself and new depths of myself all of the time. It means that I open myself to different things and experience the same things but in different ways all of the time. My inconsistency brings me deeper richness to my life.
I love my stubbornness. I’m not stubborn in a way that means I cannot see others’ perspectives or opinions or even change my own opinion or beliefs, (I do this often) but I am stubborn with my expectations and boundaries. I’m stubborn with my ethics and I think this makes me strong and clear, without being hard headed or narrow minded.
I love my inner storm. I love how peaceful and tranquil I can be and how creative and energetic I can become, how enraged and moving and chaotic I can be and then how I can still all of the noise and always find my peace again. It brings so many beautiful aspects of me to my surface so that I can experience and live through them all, experiencing my world and the people in it so differently every time.
I love my laugh. It is full and careless and tumbles out of me, weightless and uncaring. I laugh loudly, I laugh fully, I laugh with my whole body.
I love that I feel so deeply. I never used to love this about myself. It’s difficult to feel so deeply, when everything is so raw; especially when you are not taught how to process or handle those emotions. But it means I get to feel all of the good stuff so much more as well. All of the love, all of the joy, all of the excitement for the little things, all the pride when things go well and admiration when things touch my soul. The rest can be settled with boundaries and self care. But wow it’s wonderful to feel so alive!
Healing is not linear. It is messy and complex. Here I share excerpts from my journaling practices to help you see what it can really look like. I hope it helps you to heal too – Gina x
“I think every single person said at least one thing that I could fully relate to. From the expectation of being a high achiever as a child (which still cripples me today as an adult as a need to be ‘perfect’), to not finishing things because they are not ‘perfect’, to body shaming myself, to not being sure if the path I have chosen is for me or built to make someone else happy.
It was really enlightening and reassuring to hear that so many incredible women were struggling with the same things as me. It instantly made me feel less alone and at the same time made me feel more capable because it kind of put things into perspective for me. It helped me to see that these are things most of us struggle with at some point or another and simply being aware enough of these things, and self-aware enough to want to work on myself and figure out their roots is fucking powerful in itself. It definitely filled me with motivation and drive to continue to grow and continue to show up and go through this messy stuff in order to live a more fulfilled, aligned and purposeful life.”
Healing is not linear. It is messy and complex. Here I share excerpts from my journaling practices to help you see what it can really look like. I hope it helps you to heal too – Gina x
Energies are shifting globally. As a collective we going through a time of powerful transformation which means more and more people across the world, are feeling a deep stirring and a deep calling to reconnect with Earth.
If you are reading this, you are one of those people. There is something in your core that is pulling you to remember your connection with the power of Mother Nature, and often this begins to manifest as being drawn to the healing power of crystals.
Crystals are a powerful gateway to learning how to connect to the energies both within and around us and that is a beautiful thing to remember. But, like anything that becomes popular in our modern culture, it quickly gets commercialised simply because there is money to be made from it.
This rise in this popularity of crystals can therefore be a double edged sword – both beautifully healing and connecting and awakening, yet destructive and unkind at the same time. Which means it is imperative that to continue our collective journey with crystals, that we source our new tools of transformation in the kindest, most responsible and ethical way possible.
There are a few factors to think about when sourcing crystals from the land;
What is happening to the land where the crystals are mined?
Who is mining the crystals and what are the conditions like?
Who is cutting, polishing and distributing the crystals?
How are the crystals being transported across the world?
Those are lot of very heavy, complex and difficult questions to answer as a person only just starting to explore the world of crystals! So I have broken it all down here for you in a transparent piece about where my crystals come from, so that you can purchase with a clear conscience and understanding of their story.
What is happening to the land where the crystals are mined?
I’d like to begin by stating that every single crystal in my collection can be traced back to the exact mine it came from.
This is because my suppliers (the people who purchase the crystals directly from the mines and ship them to the UK) are extremely diligent in who they source from. They regularly visit the locations personally, to spot check and make sure that the standards are being maintained.
It is important to know exactly where the crystals come from because there are a lot of illegal mines across the world which destroy huge swathes of habitat, cause alarming levels of water pollution and partake in child, slave or unfair labour.
By visiting in person, it also means that they can check out how the mines operate in terms of caring for the natural environment they are mining within. The suppliers assure me that they only work with small scale mines and/or hand dug sites to ensure the impact on the environment is as minimal as possible.
Who is mining the crystals and what are the conditions like?
Most of the crystals I source come directly from Brazilian and some Indian mines via my suppliers who go directly to the mines every few months to select the pieces they want to bring into the UK.
Whilst they are on site, they check what the workers conditions are like and I have seen video evidence of them doing this. Some of the things they look for include fair pay and quality health and safety measures.
After talking with my suppliers they also mentioned that they don’t haggle down their prices when purchasing from the site as this only leads to someone else paying for the lost money down the chain, whether that’s with unfair pay, equipment not being maintained or health and safety not being properly maintained. This is why you will find the prices of the crystals I sell a little on the higher side compared with others- because everyone, right from the source has been fairly paid and corners have not been cut.
Who is cutting, polishing and distributing the crystals?
This is an easier question to answer in certain countries and trickier in others. The sites that my supplier gets their crystals from in Brazil do all of this on site. They have machines that tumble larger pieces into tiny pieces and others which are hand polished into their unique shapes, by their workers.
Again I have seen video evidence of the health and safety equipment in place for the people doing this kind work on larger scale like this. Equipment including filtering machines to prevent workers from breathing in the mineral dust.
In other countries such as India it’s a little trickier to guarantee certain things because for some cultures stone polishing in smaller batches is very much a traditional family trade. The adults teach their children how to polish the stones in order for them to be able to sustain a livelihood for themselves and their families in future. It is a passing down of skills, rather than forced child labour but it is child labour nonetheless so I wanted to be transparent about this as some of the crystals have been sourced from these families.
From the lengths that my suppliers go to, to ensure safety and fairness for all involved, I am happy to trust that this is purely a cultural difference and a passing down of skills and is in no way forced child labour. I truly believe they would not endorse this.
How are the crystals being transported across the world?
The suppliers I work with only use ships as their method of transport rather than flying the crystals to the UK as it uses far less energy to transport via the water compared to flying.
Once they reach me, I only send your new crystals treasures to you in fully biodegradable packaging and I never use plastic. All of my packaging is done with paper, including biodegradable packing tape, recycled paper business cards (printed with toxin free ink) and hessian bags or tissue paper to wrap the crystals.
I hope this has answered all of your questions but if there is anything else you’d like to know, please do feel free to contact me. I am always happy to answer hello@wildasthemoon.co.uk and don’t forget to check out the ‘available’ highlight on Instagram to see all pieces which are still looking for a homeor the sets in the shop.
