You will never be healed. It may sound like a really abrasive and negative title, bear with us whilst we expand on why it’s ok that you will never be “healed”. There’s a positive take away, we promise!
To begin with, the concept of being “healed” suggests that you have been in some way “broken”. That you need someone else to heal you. The truth is that you will never be healed. You are responding on a daily basis to your environment and need the right tools to trigger your natural healing process.
There’s also an assumption that being “healed” is the end goal. Rather than learning how to heal yourself and what works for you. In the words of Aerosmith:
“Life’s a journey, not a destination”
And the same is true of healing. Healing is NOT linear and it’s a constant practice. As soon as you bop one of those triggering suckers on the head, another one pops up – or a beast you thought you had put to rest resurfaces. Wild as the Moon was founded when we realised that we were both working to integrate a regular healing practice and wanted to support others in doing the same.
Let’s dig a little deeper into this, by looking at our own healing journeys.
Gina’s healing journey
When I look back at who I was and the life I was living even just two years ago, I almost don’t recognise myself. I look back at that girl now and I feel deeply sorry for her. I want to reach out and hug her. To tell her that she doesn’t need to put herself through all of it.
But she did need to go through it all.
Why? Because rock bottom was the most transformative place I have ever been.
Sure, it was terrifying and lonely and painful but the universe has a way of not-so-gently nudging our life to the path we are supposed to be on when the one we have chosen to live is not right for us.
My once successful business? Crumbling.
My lifetime savings? Gone.
My relationship? A prison of mental abuse
My sanity? Questionable at best.
My liver? Crying.
It seemed like the more I clawed for what was, the more everything crumbled and slipped through my fingers like sand. In reality it had been brewing inside me for years but one day I snapped and disappeared for three months by myself, to live in a van in the middle of nowhere.
The relief I felt to be away from reality and have time to clear my head was incredible. But I quickly realised that all the alone time meant I had to face myself. Facing yourself is not easy. It is brutal both mentally and physically. The tears I cried, the rage I poured into words, the stress I stomped out of my body by clambering up rocks and embarking on intense walks. It all took its toll.
I learned afterwards that this is called shadow work.
It’s about facing all of the feelings you have buried over the years to allow them to leave so that you can be at peace. When that stagnant, toxic, sticky energy leaves your body it is exhausting and exhilarating and I had the migraines to match.
I view that van now as my cocoon. By the time I came home, I was a new person. I could feel myself glowing. Nothing was ever going to be the same again but the difference now was that it excited me. So much pain had left my body, and now it was time to fill that space with gratitude and love and start rebuilding on sturdier, more aligned foundations. Releasing your past makes room for your future to arrive.
I am still learning, of course. We are constantly growing and developing and part of that is learning difficult life lessons. The difference now is that I know who I am, I know what I want, I know how strong I am. I hit rock bottom and I clawed my way back up. I did it once, I know I can do it again and that is an empowering realisation.
Lea’s healing journey
It has been a wild ride to get to this point, for sure. I’ve been diagnosed with 2 chronic illnesses. I’ve been handed innumerable prescriptions, had several intense melt downs and have had to unpick unhealthy relationship patterns over the course of the past decade.
5 years ago, a major shift began for me. I was ticking so many of the expectations boxes for someone my age and I had no idea that I was still unconsciously being driven by these. I had a mortgage, a stable “grown up” job in marketing, a fiancee, 4 hens in the garden and was playing at being “hostess to the mostess”. They do say that if you ignore the little nudges from The Universe that whisper that you aren’t on the right path it’ll send a tornado into your path and give you no option but to forge a new one. And “they” aren’t kidding!
Several pretty catastrophic personal events later and the cracks began to show. And I lacked the support and tools I needed to cope with the strains I was under in a healthy way. The truth was, that living this way had laid bare all of the wounded parts of mySELF and I finally noticed that:
My Body – was screaming
Mind – was screaming
Spirit – was screaming
Yup, ignoring the quiet whispers leads to insistent-can’t-ignore-me-any-longer screaming and things ground to a halt. It became glaringly obvious that I needed to try something new.
Yoga, cacao, oracle cards, herbalism, folklore, ayurveda, women’s circles and conscious living were all suddenly revealed to me. And I DRANK THAT SHIT IN. I’ve started 4 businesses since integrating regular healing practices, had beautiful experiences with like minded souls and surfed the waves that might have engulfed me a few years prior. I’ve begun healing ancestral patterns and am learning to live in tune with my own nature.
If you’ve been feeling stuck, lost, unfulfilled or all-of-the-above, we want you to know that you are not alone! This is the sign you’ve been waiting for. It’s time for you to start investing in your own healing journey. You will never be healed because everything is a journey.